are you happy?

My bestfriend Theng asked me this last night when i called her, "are you happy?". I'm just lucky we live million miles away from each other (not that i don't want her to be my neighbor) but ngakngak kase sya ng ngakngak. I dunno what would have happened if i was with her yesterday. Maybe now i have an otalgia sa walang prenong ngakngak. Then, i called my other bestfriend Bing. it was the same ngakngak too. She asked me, "are you happy?". hooo... even they live so far away from me i still can hear it, "what are you doing? what will it do to you if you keep looking back?". I'm so grateful to have them both... They sometimes shake me really hard just for me to wake up. And, i'm so grateful i've friends who are there to say things to make me feel better, to give there honest opinion "that's pathetic!" hahahaha, or they are there TO LISTEN.

Am i happy? or Am i bitter? I'm happy! yes! I've blessings to count right? But i cried over the spilled milk... hahahaa baket akala ko ba it will bring the milk back to glass? even Kwan will denied it again and again or admit it or my "friend" will feel guilty or not... will it change what had happened?! it won't...... Do i have to feel bitter because i really took care of that more than 3yrs relationship and end up like this? Some say i should've say something to Kwen but i didn't... i just changed my number and that was it! but yeah, i said something to Kwan he's the one i've to deal with, right?! gosssh.... 2007 is almost over and i'm so delayed....

After contemplating, i thought maybe i need to discipline myself more... & "it is me who make my own problem" & "just accept it & let it go". Yes, i've to MOVE ON and listen to those people around me... they have right things to say! I don't have to cry over a spilled milk... i've to think panis na kase yun! or not hahaha... I've to find something good in everything that happens. Wish me luck, guys!