finally

Someone asked me before the reason/s why i didn't say anything to Kwen... never emailed her or texted her my dream & what i found out, why i just changed my phone number & that was it. (to those of you who didn't know the whole story pls read my old blogs) Before, I cannot fathom why they "Kwan & Kwen" did it... And, i think the reasons why i didn't confront Kwen 1.) She was a friend... i treated her as a friend. 2.) Sometimes when i am badly hurt, i tend to say things that are hurtful to others. 3.) There's Kwan that i confronted. Honestly, there were times when i really wanted to seek "revenge"... Whatever it was in my head! I'm grateful it was all in my head.

Today, it's just a different day. I woke up around 4am and when i was thinking deliberately, i thought of "reaching out" rather than thinking of myself. I finally did it, i sent text message to Kwan telling him to pls tell Kwen that i forgiven her (whatever she might think). I already forgiven Kwan long time ago but with Kwen it was just a different story... we never talked, we never heard each other's side. I prefer it this way... and there's nothing to talk about. I completely let go of Kwan already.

As what Kelli Pickler said (thanks Misyel), "Forgiveness is such a simple word but it's so hard to do when you've been hurt".

I'm doing this not only for them... but for myself... and for him (don't know him yet)!