"It's not time yet to plant this seed."
"What did you say, N?"
"Ohh... you know the "seed". I said, this is not the right time to plant this "seed"."
"So, when is the right time?"
He understands what i was saying.
"hhhmmm the right time... with the right weather... when i know that i can nourish it... take care of it coz i don't want it to grow unhealthy. I want it to be so full of life."
It was not too long after that conversation and i planted the seed. I think i did my best to take care of it, to make it grow, to be full of life, and well-nourished. He is there. I am here. We never seen each other for 11years. What was i thinking that time? He's the one?! ohh.. I expected too much, i guess. Sometimes, i thought i was in love with the idea of LOVE. I don't know. For a short time... the truth is, i was affected.
Wind blew it really hard. Thunderstorm even made it worst. (i'm scared of thunderstorm) Lightning was a prop. Yes, the seed was hit by HURRICANE. It drooped on the ground. Day by day, i tried to pull it back together... hoping it will stand up and grow back... back to... to that soooo full of life. It was one-sided. I heard people who love & inspire me to let it go. "It's not worth of your time." The seed was exhausted... it withered... it died. Maybe sometimes i'm just imagining things... sometimes i thought there's a lil root there. but nah... it was just my mind tricking me. And even if it still has root there... i'll get a palakol and i will palakol that seed!
I don't have to blame myself. I don't have to tell myself, "I should've listen to my parents and my friends." I don't have to regret what i have lost. I have to be thankful that for once & for a short time that seed has dwelt in my heart. It made me happy. And, I know someday i will plant another seed... i didn't loose hope. I know i have a green thumb. *winks. That will be the seed that i will really take care... that he will take care... and it will grow old... with "us"... in God's mark moment it will come!
Hoooo... do u think i will plant narra, acasia, or ipil-ipil next time? What will be the next conversation if someone will ask me about the "seed" then?! hahaha....
Monday, June 2, 2008
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If I were you, I'll plant ipil-ipil...lol! It's so easy to make it grow and it grows anywhere...you can even chew the seed if nainis ka saka mo lulunin kung gusto mong mapurga. hahaha! But seriously, I admire people like you...Despite of everything you remain positive and doesn't lose hope in life. You have a good heart...keep loving. :-)
hello. just dropping by but your post made me to comment.
Plant another seed. A seed which is ready to be nourished and cared.
Thanks.
nhemz... am giving you the oak tree seed for you to plant... hahaha
Http://osuextra.okstate.edu/pdfs/F-5031web.pdf
ara may link pa for your further readings. hahaha
pati nehmz ah... i wanted you to plant an oak tree.. because it has a quality of being mighty, strong, enduring and steadfast. Ari another readings.. http://www.whitedragon.org.uk/articles/oak.htm
hahaha
anyway i will always be here to support you in good and bad..hahaha
love you nehmz..
ate jon :D
maraming seeds dyan, minsan may nasasamang bad pero kapag super ganda nung good seeds, panalo pa rin yung better seeds :D have fun with your seeds!
wow, i love this post! tama yan sis be positive. know what? God is preparing the seed for you to plant, He will give you the best and the right one for you to cherish forever and ever. hugs!
pag namunga yung seed na itatanim mo, ate, pahingi ako ng bunga ha..lols
naalala ko tuloy yung kanta noong late 80's na Sowing the Seeds of Love kaya lang, baka di ka pa napapanganak nun, NJ.
God bless your "seeds!"
Oak, Pine, which is which? Plant it dear. It needs your care. :)
how are you na?
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